post-whole30 thoughts.

so i’ve been ‘off’ of the whole30 thing and paleo eating for close to a week now. while on the whole i’ve still made pretty decent food choices, i’ve deliberately made myself eat some pretty junky food choices (it helps that my food budget is abysmal right now too). aside from the guilt i still find myself feeling as i reach for another sip of my soda (which i am still just largely avoiding all together because this was one of the big problem areas for me) i’ve already noticed the impact of the few days of “bad” eating. bloating, some gas, heartburn, or just feeling really full and uncomfortable… my sinuses are jacked up right now but that could legitimately be due to the weather/seasons. this time of year is always the worst for me  as far as allergies go.

this is a good thing. i now have something to compare my old habits to. and thinking back to how i felt for the most part during whole30, i’m extremely displeased with how i feel now. i’ve already seen a huge drop in my energy levels, and i’ve already seen the impact on my sleep schedule. i’m still waking up at a decent time, but instead of being up before my alarm clock, i’ve been using it to get me up. instead of falling asleep easily at 12-1am, i’m seeing the clock pass 2am and i’m still just not quite~ there yet. i’m waking up cranky, with tired eyes and lacking the pep i had a couple of weeks ago.

so it’s time to really solidify these changes i just worked so hard on getting into my life. i still don’t think i can completely go paleo, and it honestly just boils down to the fact that life is too short, and i’m going to indulge in things from time to time, even if they are absolutely horrible for me. for instance, i’m fairly sure that i’m going to tear through some s’mores brownies tomorrow night when i get together with some friends. and that’s okay. but i’m also feeling way more focused towards getting tons of veggies and whole foods into my life day to day. as i can’t apparently say enough times, my money situation is shit right now. it will get better but work has dropped off a little the last month, so i’m rebounding from a few weeks of getting sent home early and missing out on some much needed cash. things are already getting better in that area because we’re starting to get into the early stages of cold/flu season, and anyone who works in a health care environment knows that things pick up dramatically the closer it gets to winter. so once i’m back on track, i’ll be getting my diet back on track too. for now i’m trying to do the best i can with what i’ve got available to me.

i kind of got off track there. anyways. my plan from here on out is to stay moderately paleo/eat clean/whatever term we want to use. i’m going to bring dairy back into my life (in the form of cheese and greek yogurt mostly). i love unsweetened (and sweetened) vanilla almond milk, something i had never tried prior to whole30. i’ll have tortillas/tortilla chips and some bread occasionally. sorry, i’m a bagel lover, and a taco just isn’t a taco without a delightfully crispy tortilla. i’ll have a (reasonable) plate of spaghetti if i feel like it, and pizza here and there. i love food, i love flavors, and i don’t see myself being a happy person if i have to spend the rest of my life saying no to everything every time. that doesn’t mean i have to say yes every time, to every bad thing. again, life. too short. moving on…

i like that i definitely developed a much better system of buying and utilizing fresh produce. i’ve always been a fruit/veggie fan but i’m horribly horribly guilty of wasting a lot of food because i bought it when it looked good, and just didn’t quite get to it. during whole30, i did a pretty freaking awesome job. didn’t get a ton of lettuce go to waste, which is one of my usual pitfalls. probably ate 90% of the total fruit that i bought, but sometimes even with best efforts fruit just doesn’t quite work out. i’ve gotten into better habits with packing lunches for myself, and not just throwing something starchy in my bag to fill myself up for dinner at work. yes, it takes more effort and planning to eat a healthy diet like this… but i like the challenge (most of the time—some days i was admittedly a total grumpy cat over the whole situation). it gives me a goal to meet, and i am a very goal-driven person. i like knowing that i have to face this challenge with a certain amount of rules and restrictions… it makes it more like a puzzle, having to figure out how to make all of the pieces work to get the most out of your food/life. so i’ll use all of this wisdom, continue to research recipes and other health information as far as paleo/keto/whole30/primal/clean diets go. i’m also a sponge for knowledge, so every little bit of information i can pick up helps to motivate me more and more in the right direction. inspiration is a great tool to have, and the internet provides so much.

i could probably ramble on a while longer, but i’ve got to get my ass in gear and get ready to go to work in about 20 minutes. TGIF! 

end of whole…26

my whole30 challenge pretty much came to an end after day 26. days 27-28 were spent in st. louis at Loufest, and i didn’t have it in me to try and find something that was compliant and would actually keep me standing through the hot sun all day.

i finally set foot on a scale on sunday morning at my friends’ apartment… something i hadn’t really done before starting the challenge. however… i was pleased with what i saw. the last time i saw a number on the scale, it was in the low 140’s. yesterday it was at 132. that puts me at less than 10lbs away from my “goal weight”. now i just need to keep eating well (and paleo when i can manage, or feel like carbs are ruling my life) and get a good exercise routine going, and i know i can get to that goal. in all reality, i care more about my actual pant size than i do about a number on the scale. i know what size i typically feel i look the best at, feel the best at. so on that, i still have progress to make. but i have newfound confidence in myself. i did this challenge for nearly a month, and had my financial situation been in a better place, i could have stretched it further, i’m sure. but i still did myself proud.

i have some before and during pictures… i’ll post them if i’m feeling brave enough soon.

catching up again

DAY 25

-almond milk

-leftover chicken


-big fat salad with paleo ranch, tomatoes, sunflower seeds, ad nauseum.

DAY 26

-2 kiwi

-grilled chicken wings with frank’s red hot and some paleo ranch for dipping

-roasted turkey breast

~ Paleo Diet Recipes: Improving My Body Image By Living Without A Mirror Or A Scale

paleorecipecookbook: have a client right now who has an eating disorder.

After years of over-exercising and under-eating, she has extreme adrenal fatigue, and she’s now struggling with my assignments to eat more and exercise less. Don’t get me wrong: this girl is a determined bad-ass and so far she’s doing…

some good food for thought.

man, have i been bad with pictures or what?


-gala apple + almond butter

-pan seared some leftover steak
-steamed spinach

-mixed green salad with tomato, sunflower seeds, leftover chicken, balsamic vinaigrette
-2 hard boiled eggs

i have just completely lost my motivation to cook, but i’m still just patiently awaiting thursday, payday, so i can actually go buy more food. my fridge is so pathetic. i’m down to about 3 eggs, and i’ve been trying to save them for my boyfriend, because he likes them more than i do typically. not feeling inspired whatsoever at this point. but i’m proud of myself, even if my diet is fairly unimaginative, it’s still pretty healthy.


Interlude) Day 21: I am so over this.

You’ve solidly settled into week three of the program at this point. Your clothes fit better; your skin is clearer; your inner awesomeness is shining through. But despite the many benefits you’re seeing, you went to bed last night dreading the thought of breakfast. You weren’t much more excited about it this morning, either. Come to think of it, you’re not thrilled with any of your meal options right now.  In fact, if Iron Chef Bobby Flay were to walk into your kitchen right now and offer to cook you any Whole30 compliant meal you wanted, you’re not even sure you could think of one.Just about anything sounds like more fun than sitting down to a big plate of Whole30 grub.  You’re loving the way your body is responding to the program, but you’re just not sure if you can make it through 9 more days. And if you see even one more egg, you are going to scream.

Somewhere in the third week of the program, serious food boredom sets in.For some folks, it gets so overwhelming that they lose their appetite altogether for a few days. Don’t let the food fatigue overtake you – plan ahead! Get to work in week two and hunt down some new recipes to keep the fire burning! Find inspiration from our recentmeal plan round-up, cruise the Whole30 section ofChowstalkerorThe Foodie, or pick up a new cookbook (likeWell Fed 2…wink wink, nudge nudge). Find some exotic produce in the grocery store, try some exotic recipes – do whateveryou can to get over this little speed bump. Being boredandhungry is just a recipe for disaster, and this, too, shall pass.

pretty much dead on.


-almond milk

-beef sausage
-a fairly boring salad… mixed greens, tomato, balsamic, sunflower seeds

-chicken breast
-several organic cherry tomatoes from a friend

-an apple
-more sunflower seeds

DAY 20:

no breakfast, i had a late start and also had to be at work early today so getting my dinner ready was my focus… well, i guess i had some almond milk, but that’s hardly breakfast.

-chicken lettuce wrap with frank’s red hot sauce, tomato, cucumber

-chicken tortilla soup
-half of an avocado

feeling kinda “meh” today. i have a lot on my mind and i’m cranky… probably because i’m getting close to shark week. i’ll probably end up stopping the challenge a few days before the technical end (the 10th or 11th is when it should be, but i’ll be in st. louis on the 7-8th for a music festival, and i just don’t have it in me to care that much anymore. i miss carbs, i won’t lie. just in reduced amounts from now on… 

in happier news though, this morning i noticed that the area of my stomach right below my bellybutton is looking flatter. this has always been a lumpy, ugly area for me, even when i was participating in several sports in high school. so, that was a nice thing to see. definitely encouragement that i need for these last few days.


-almond milk

-big red tomato
-can of tuna in water

-mixed greens salad with another big tomato, half of an avocado, hard boiled egg, some peppered deli sliced turkey, balsamic vinaigrette
-1 cup of broccoli

-more raspberries

halfway through another week… the countdown is getting closer and closer!

spaghetti squash

trying it out for the first time today… getting ready to pop it in the oven. hopefully it turns out well, i am running extremely low on food and even lower on money. not sure how the rest of this challenge is going to turn out, honestly. i am already in a really bad spot right now financially, and i need to be able to EAT more than i need to be able to worry about if my meal is being compliant to a specific plan. it doesn’t mean going off the rails and eating a bunch of deep fried fast food, but it might mean i have to give up and make a bowl of noodles one of these nights just because it’s all i HAVE available to me at the moment.

i need to be able to pay my mortgage and credit card on time rather than needing to buy a package of organic field greens. no, this does not work out in the long run but until my cashflow is increased, i just really don’t have much of an option temporarily. but, one day at a time for now… maybe my boyfriend will get a bigger paycheck than expected and will be able to help me out a little more.